Kira Horton.

Dear Kira,

This is the hardest thing I have ever done. Just like when we said goodbye today. I thought saying goodbye to you would be the easiest, because we're going to see each other so much this summer. But it ended up being the hardest out of all of them. I cried so much on the drive home, and all I could think about was that you were still in the dorms, and I could have been there with you.
You know that saying, save the best for last? I did that. Right when I decided to do these blog posts, I knew you would be last. Because the saying is true. Last is the best. Just like you're the best.

You are the best friend I have ever had. You know me better than I know myself sometimes. I've never had a friend as true as you. I don't know what I'm going to do now. I can't walk down the hall and come sit on your bed. There's no more going to lunch together. We aren't going to spontaneously decide to take pictures. We can't watch Tosh in the basement. There's no more watching movies in either of our rooms. You aren't able to complain about how hot my room is and open the window even though I'm still cold. We can't make dirty jokes all the time and laugh about everything. It's all over. I can't believe how fast it all went, and I can't believe how important you've become to me. 

When I think about our first year at college, I'm going to think of you. We've done so much together. We've gone through so many arguments and inside jokes and deep talks. I've never had someone care so much about me, to the point tears when you're concerned for me. No one has ever cried because they're worried about me and my health. It really hit me, at that moment, how important you are in my life. You've been my best friend since we met, but it wasn't until then that I realized how much I mean to you, too. I feel so, so loved.

I miss you. I'm already planning on seeing you in two days, and I'm making sure we hang out a lot after that. But still. We won't be hanging out in our dorm rooms that had become home. It hurts so much when I think about next year without you. I don't know how I'm going to survive. You keep me sane. No one makes me laugh like you do, and I need that. (Yes, I am only friends with you so you can make me laugh. I am 100% kidding.)

You tried so many times to prevent me from getting hurt by guys. Even though I didn't listen most of the time, I always thought about what you said and that you were probably right. I'm sorry I didn't listen to you. Maybe if I had, we wouldn't have gone through so many low points. But, then again, we wouldn't be as strong if we didn't go through all that. Just the fact that you stuck by my side means so much to me. Don't ever leave my side!

I love that my family loves you. Not as much as I do,but still. You are always, always welcome here. In fact, come live here with me. Keep me sane. Britny would love it almost as much as I would. You would just need a lesson on how to hold a conscious baby, then you would be good to go. :)

I tried to look through all of our pictures today. I don't think I'll ever have time to look at every single one. We have so many! I can't wait to add more to our collection. It's going to grow to a ridiculous amount soon. Maybe we'll get a world record for it or something.

I wish I were at the dorms with you. I wish I was in my room right now, posting this to your Facebook wall, waiting for you to read it so you can come give me a big hug. Then we'd hang out the rest of the night, probably make one last Walmart run, go do something that only the two of us would find even remotely entertaining, and then have a sleepover so neither of us are alone. I wish that would all happen tonight. But I know that I missed that chance, because now, it won't happen. Ever.

I feel like I still have so much to say. I want to thank you for everything, Kira. For being there for me. For loving me. For being the best friend I could ever ask for. You've helped me through so many things in my life. Because of you, I'm genuinely trying to be healthier. I want to live a long, long time so that we can be friends until we die. So you must be healthy too. I love you too much to not tell you to be healthy. You are one of the most beautiful people I have ever known. Both inside and out. You may not believe it all the time, but everyone else does. Because it's true. You are amazing. You light up my life, and countless other lives as well. That's how amazing you are.

I love you so much, Kira. You are more than I could ever ask for, more than I ever imagined. No one has a best friend as great as mine.

Love, Me.

P.S. Don't ever change, H.A.G.S.!

P.P.S. I couldn't decide which pictures to include, so I just included all of the ones that I could find. I love every single one of them. I hope you do too. :)